flashbackssss!!

[*i wrote it about a year ago.. nakakatuwa naman, mai mga gntong level pla ku:)) shareness lang, walei aku ibang mapost eh:p]

hay! isa nanmang araw! i dont know why, but since i woke up i felt sad! i saw my mom and dad having breakfast outside. my siblings was then sleeping! it was around 8 in the morning! it was a peaceful day! i dont feel hungry so after i was my face, brush my teeth! i went on our little terrice! terrice pangmahirap! tiningnan ku ung two love birds namen, check if they had still food! then i look for the other one! inuga ku ung cage nila! aun she went out of there mini room! fly close to me, sumunod ung partner nia, then they kiss! hay! how sweet naman! un ung naisip ku! (haha baliw?) uhm i remember, d pla mabubuhay ang love birds pag isa lang! kelangan pakners lagi sila! uhm no one's an island nga naman! hay! i looked outside! nakita ku ang view ng dikit dikit na bahay. d naman kame rich para sa subdivision or village tumira nu! ang ganda ng sikat ng araw! sa tapat ng bahay namen ay may 3rdfloor na bahay! sa kanan ay may munting barong barong at sa kaliwa ay 3rdfloor din. tabi kame ng kalsada pero d ng main road. the end part of our street is a flood control! dba i live in pasig! tabi ng ilog! madalas ang baha-thats how they describe it! hay! pero infairness, we almost lived here for 4 years, parang kelan lang! as i looked around, i remember those times that i was in cebu, my mornings there, how i look like. i remember! as i woke up, i checheck ku agad ang fone ku! if somebody in manila has texted me, pag meron, un i was so supah happy! i mean, kahit na single goodmorning lang ang message basta i know that that text was from manila pa, hay! napakahappy na tlga! that's how much i'd missed manila that time! syempre maghihilamos,toothbrush, as much as possible magawa ku un before i talked to somebody else there. one thing ruins my morning, that's when the passenger were still on our ship, wherein ang ingay, ang gulo, at nagkakalat sila! that really annoys me alot! panu ba naman, 2am nagaarive ung ship sa cebu then 7-8 in the morning andun pa sila sa barko. gosh! sometimes i think nga e to make some rules that whenever the ships has arrived to the port they must leave immediately! kxo masayado namang selfish!! hehe! then, after i did my grooming, aun i will look onto the sea, look as the sun rise, (shit! ang ganda ganda ng view, aun ang isa sa mga namimiss ku tlga) and then saka aku magcocount down how many days before i go home. then, after magilusyon, i have to do the daily chore and that was to sweep the floor, the whole deck a, pero minsan lang un kxe sometimes dalawa kame ni rose na nagswesweep dun e. walang agahan, haha! honestly we have, but i dont know if you can call it as a food! nakafixed na kxe ung food dun. NFA and kanin, agahan e tinowa(tinola in manila) ok lang sana kung chicken e, pero isda!isda! isda!! hay! sa tanghali ay fried! but its not chicken pdin! isda! isda! isda! hay! sa hapunan ay paksiw, at syempre isda un! un ang naging food ku for six months! hay! even myself i cant believe that i used to do that! gosh! i always asks my crewmates nga if i had some scales na e for we always eat fish. hay! good part of it was my parents always sends me allowance kea aun, pagbagung reload ang wallet, masarap ang pagkain! were so glutton there. i mean everytime we went outside the port, we always want to eat all foods that we see. kea nga big part of our allowances goes to food e! uhm kung ganu kabad trip pag sa cebu kame nagaarive e syang saya pag sa leyte kame. monday, wednesday and friday lang kame sa cebu, the rest nasa leyte kame, kea lamang pdin and happiness! hmm, you'll probably curious why did i say that. mas marame kaseng benifit ang pagdaong sa leyte! first, pagarrive namen dun ng 2am, bumababa agad lahat! as in lahat ng mga passenger + kasabay namen dumaong dun ang roble(shipping lines din)e mai mga career aku dun + the view is so awsome + mas mai possibility na masarap ang ulam, basta favorite ku tlga ang tuesday, thursday, saturday and sunday! haha! excited sa mga days na un xe im the one who's assigned for the announcing before leaving the port! i'd love hearing my voice all over the ship even the outside part when i did the deckhands announcements! haha! i remembered the first time i did it, i was mortified, i had a wrong word! and the passengers noticed it! hay! nobody's perfect nga naman! but as i practice aun, nakuha ku ung da best way to do it! hay! nagising aku sa pagkatulala at pagdaydream ku ng mai tumawag sa napakaganda kung pangalan mula sa ibaba ng terrice, napatingin aku, si "hi aiah" pala un. i dont know what's his name e! pagnanakakasalubong ku kse siya sa daan, "hi aiah" ang lagi niang sinasabe kea un ang tawag ku sa kanya. at walang kaabug abog sinabe nanman nia ang "hi aiah" haha! natawa tlga aku! hay! buti nlang mai mga taong ganun! napapasaya nila aku, even for a while! nawala na aku sa focus ng pagrereminise, hay! i really feel sad today! bket kea? habang nagiisip, napatingin aku sa mga batang naglalaro ng 10-20 sa harapan ng bahay namen, muli ay naalala ku ang aking kabataan, ung mga panahon na pagkagising ku ay d man lang naghihilamos o agahan ay deretso na sa labas kasama ang gomang pinagdikit dikit paramakagawa ng mahabang tali para gawing 10-20 at saka pupunta sa bakanteng lote sa tabi ng bahai namen, sa luoban kame nakatira nung ako'y bata pa at tanging isang bakanteng lote lang ang tambayan ng lahat ng mga kabataan sa lugar namen kaya dun aku dimederetso. araw araw ay ganun ang eksena sa buhay ku all those times until one day, binakuran na ang bakanteng lote and they dont allow the children to play in there anymore, nagalit ang mai ari cause of the garbages we throw there. lahat kme felt sad about it. wula na ang playground namen. wula na! hinding hindi ku makakalimutan ang araw na yon. maswerte padin ang mga batang to, nasabi ku sa saril ku habang pinanunuod sila, kxe dito sa street namen ngaun e mai space tlga na pinaglaanan para sa mga bata! nangawit aku sa kakatayo kaya i decided to go downstairs na! mejo nagugutom ndin aku e at gusto kung sumabay kila mama at papa! pagbaba ku ay i look for my cell phone then see if somebody has texted me, 3missed calls from **h*! hay! napadeep breath aku! hindi pa din nia ku tinatantanan, 1 msg from unknown contact. then, i went outside, nakita ku sla mamzie at papzie having their convo, walang kaabug abug nakisali aku, napakasarap ng feeling ng mai parents. i mean uo alam ku lahat naman tau mai parents e. pero iba ung kasama mu silang mabuhay, nakasuporta sau at ginaguide ka thoughout your life. somehow i feel happy as i looked at them, napakaswerte ku pla, i said to myself. kahit d man kame mayaman, walang magagarang sasakyan at bahai pero kumpleto ang pamilya ku. madame sa aking mga kaibigan ay broken family o d naman kea ay wula ang magulang dahil nagtatrabaho sa ibang bansa o inabandona na. im soo soo much lucky. my parents was able to give what i need and some of my whats. and i think i should be contented on what i have! alam ku na madami din akung faults sa kanila, isa dito ung inaway ku sila nung d nila aku pinayagan sa swimming namen sa cavite. hindi kame nagpansinan for about a week, after school and ojt i go bed agad! sometimes i really dont eat dinner until napuno na siguro si mama at aun she confronted me. aun! nagsalubong ang mga galet! i really felt bad din kxe that time. d nila aku pinayagan e first time ku magpaalam ng mga gnung outing. i study hard din naman nun. kea tlgang grabe ung moment na un. i supah dupah like to go on that outin! as in! aun! aku padin ang nagsoorrry sa kanila then, they forgive me ofcourse. and ang hindi nila alam tumuloy aku sa outing! haha! i just pretend that i was sleeping kila rose. haha! im such a badgirl! pero super dupah nagsisi din aku nun! and in the end i tell the truth din sa kanila! hay! napatingin aku kai mama when she called me! then all of a sudden i realized na kung baket aku sad today!! its because di na ku pumasok sa first work ku! but they bid me its okay!!!!!!!!!