CASINO thing is NOT my thing!
09-16-12
12:12am



Hmmmm.. Guess what? Im still unemployed for the past 176days.. lol for that LONG :( But since I have more and more FAITH on Him(God), Im less worried :) Okay let's talk bout that CASINO thing, since that's the title of this blog entry :)

You'll not gonna believe who texted me yesterday(09-14-12), Magsaysay Maritime Corp. OMG to the 100th time! Ive known that company eversince I was a college student at PMI way back 2years from now. Ive heard lots an lots of rumors bout that, some says "Naku Magsaysay? Mahirap makapasok jan, mahigpit sobrrra! Kelangan madae ka experience, Naku bata kpa, di ka tatanggapin jan, Kelangan ng backer jan, palakasan jan eh". Wheew those were some of the thoughts Ive got from my friends whenever I asked them bout Magsaysay. So I myself, never tried to go there to have an application, I was totally scared! Not until yesterday. How did I got there? Okay, almost 2months ago I opened my JOBsdb account and to my surprise I saw an add from them, that they need GSA/Casino staff, here's a printscreen copy of the available position on them:

Age? check! College level? check! with or WITHOUT experience? super check! Soo, just when I saw this I immediately click the quick apply button. I mean, haler! I may not be familiar with the position, but I dont mind it, It's on seabased/CRUISESHIP baby! That's my biggest dream right now! lol. So, going back to the story, I did that application almost 2mos from now, as what ive said a while ago. So I never ever thought that they'll gonna text me yesterday. Just when I read the msg, I shouted outloud, my mom and sis thought Im crazy coz of the shout, they thought I won the first prize on a lottery! haha. Without any hesitation I replied on them! On my way @kalaw, to their office, I was like soooo much "tulalei". I dont know why? Maybe coz, its my first time, you know applying for cruiseship, seriously and in MAGSAYSAY pa! Im soo scared with them! But I was like "Bahala na! testing lang! kiber what would happen later, basta soya lang" to myself. I was late, It was 4:30pm wherein I should be there by 4:00pm, my bad, I forgot that it was Friday yesterday, meaning soooo traffic + I almost forgot how to get there in Kalaw, Ive never been there for almost a year. To my surprise, the guard asked me alot before letting me in the bldg. Wow, as I enter I saw lots of applicants, how did I know they were all applicants? haha! It's their recruitment department eh! haha! I go straight to the reception and they entertained me immediately. They get my weigh and HEIGHT! and wait for my turn for the screening/interview. It was taglish, so good, female interviewer. We talked everything on my resume. In short- I failed! I didnt make it. Why? First and foremost coz of my HEIGHT. Im just 156cm wherein the qualifications says it should be 162cm. 6cm. made a difference! Another one, my hands!:

What's with that? Since Im applying for a casino staff, the hands are the most important thing! they should be PERFECT! I had 2 fowls, first, I have a mole and second I have a sweaty hands. That two factor is a big big no if you want to be a casino staff. Plus I dont have any idea about the gambling stuff. Swear, I dont even know how to play poker, pusoy or even tong-its. haha. And that's how it ended.

 What motivates me that time, was the interviewer's words of wisdom, she asked me if I really want to be on a CRUISEship, I said yes aloud. I told her I want to be a cabin steward, She told me that my past experinces were great, its a good start and if I already have worked on a 3-5 star hotel for atleast a year then it'll be much easier for me to achieve what I want. She says Im to young and I have lots of opportunities. Before going home, I went to Quiapo church, sent my prayers and told to myself, "Maybe, it isnt the right time, I may not be for a GSA position coz what I want is to be a cabin steward, I know I'll achieve it someday, I'll strive more and more, do watever it takes just to make it happen:)"

That was the second attempt on being a casino dealer. One month ago, I also tried my luck and applied as an online casino dealer @Ortigas, a friend of mine told the infos on me, since she is working there. She told me, CASINO is great, petics na work + easy and bigger money. So I got curios bout this casino thing. Hmm.. I must try, this new world. When they texted me for an interview it was a blast coz I cant believe that they texted me again since i've rejected the first invitation coz I had interview @shang. haha. Me and the other applicants had our panel interview and screening with the korean owners. As a result I didnt make it. But it never bothered me. I know I didnt do my best there, and honestly I dont like working in there promise, somehow I feel its somelike an illegal business, I smell something on this company. BASTA!


After that two attempts being on the gambling industry, I must say! it isnt my thing really! But im not closing my doors. You'll never know someday I'll master all those gambling games and be one of the effective casino dealers we had today.. haha as if! Seriously, sometimes trying a new world is not wrong or bad, its a matter of trying trial and error, since everything in this world is free to dig on, why shouldn't I try anything, everything. Ill do it, if its the way of achieving my top goal: CRUISESHIP! :)


As for now, Im taking my road slowly but surely. I want things to be on the right track. On Monday will be my 4th out of 5sets of interviews @makati Shangri-la. Just a few step on my target now: to be in a 5star hotel. It's hard, really hard. But through strongly faith on Him I know I can do it. :)

WISHMELUCK:)


aikatz!

Hey what's going ONnnn??!!

aug. 10, 2012 entry :)

okay. its been almost a month since i last wrote. uhm i just dont feel like doing it. As you can see the date, it's AUGUST now, 4months and 20days unemployed :( Im still not giving up. Im maybe so upset this past few months but now i know things should never pushed when its still not to happen, that no matter how i plan things, in the end its God who's gonna decide everything..:) (faith lang.) Uhm as this month dropsby, i started passing resumes via online. And guess what, just the day after, i got responseS. Good responses, i must say:) Ive got the LGS agency which they'll gonna endorse me @makati shangrila hotel, (damn. its a five star hotel baby! Ive been dreaming on working there eversince.) + the fact that I'll be applying as a Room Attendant position. OMG! its a dream come true:) and also a response from that online casino dealer somewhere  in ortigas. Ive been waiting that call 2 weeks ago. Since I also wanted to try how to be a casino dealer( i think its exciting! the gambling stuff). That was a dilemma for me. Both of them was scheduled last Monday at the very exact time, 1pm:) haha. It was so hard to choose which of them should i pick. The path i really wanted to be(Room attendant) or the new world I wanted to try (casino dealer). wheew! I prayed so hard and followed what's on my heart:) i choosed Shangri-la:)

It was MOnday, First day of the week. Fourth attempt @hotel industry. Heavy rain. I guess I was totally prepared, I even search facts about Shang and being a Room attendant. As I always says, I'll always do my BEST in everything and God:) will take the REST. I wasnt expecting much that time. Im just after the experience of how to be interviewed @shang and also to enter the employee's entrance of the hotel. I dont know, but it was a big privilage for me as a hotelwork dreamer.. haha. I think were all 40-50 applicants, most were boys, good looking boys:). lol. Also the girls were all pretty and tall. As usual, my competitors has their degrees, tourism and HRM from well-known Universities. Im getting used of it. Were also from different agencies. Most of us were applying as a Food attendant.  they need huge counts of that position for the banquet. The food attendants applicants will just undergo 2 interviews unlike us the Room attendant applicants will do 5 interviews..:) The first interviewer was the HR supervisor. A girl, thank God. Honestly I was really, super duper nervous that time although I had encountered lots of interview sessions in the past. At first I felt my voice was shaking that she had to pardon me haha. But I focused my mind, eye contacted her and speak loud and clear. Since she's in a hurry that time, she has this 2 questions for me, first is the "tell me something about yourself" and what to you think is the role of a room attendant?. I answered it both well, but im not that much confident that I made it until our coor told me so. OMG! I was like? really? Im gonna go back here for the next interview? hahahah! praise God:) I owe it to Him. EVERYTHING! I guess Mondays are always GOOD:) but not until the day ends. It was raining whole day and that causes to have a flash flood in different part of Manila, specially in Pasig.

















 
aikatz :)

still "NO" for the 3rd time, Friday the 13th kaxe:)

I wasnt able to write here on my blogsite for almost one month? haha.

HEIGHT! HEIGHT! HEIGHT! In hotel industry, Why is it the highest qualification that an applicant should possess????
Today was half crazy. I was endorsed @New World Hotel, actually ive never heard that hotel before. I have to search files bout it and to my surprise, its a 5star hotel:) I got excited:)) It was located in Makati, beside Greenbelt5. I woke up early in the morning just to make this on the right track. I really should put my best effort on it, since it was my third interview on a hotel + the fact that it's a five atar. I found out that today was Friday the 13th, I dont believe about badlucks during this rare days coz for me its a reverse, I feel always lucky instead. lol. I headed the hotel, it was easy to find. I was amazed by the ambiance the hotel has, so sossy and cozy. I looked @ the entrance of the hotel very much, cause i was applying for a doorlady position, just curious how they work things there. The bellman and the ushers even the vallet parker, theyre all handsome:) as in..(palong palo) I went straight to the employee's entrance, as usual @the back part of the hotel, as instructed by the guards. One point why i love'd this industry is that all the employees are very much hospitable, you can always see the smile in their faces:)) To my surprise, my name wasn't listed on the endorsement letter. WTF! I was like, OMG its not happening. I called my agency, my coor and asked her about the situation. I was relieved when she informed me that everything's settled, there was just an error bout those such endorsement. We're all 14 female applicants waiting for the interviewer. Nervous? not so quite, im getting used of the interview portion. I hate male interviewers,they're soo hard to read unlike to female ones, you can easily distinguished if they like you or not. I had a time to chat with the other applicants. Almost everybody has their own degrees, HRM or TOURISM + work experiences. As usual I felt dissapointed for my background, but i know in myself that i have the willingness so i can do it even better than them. We're all surprised when the hr staff told us that she doesn't accept applicants whose HEIGHT is below 5'4, regardless the education and working backgrounds, even the pleasing personality. OMG! only two of us 14applicants were able to meet the HEIGHT requirement. POtek! After  almost 2hour standing there, I wasnt able man lang to show them what ive got. ERRR! It'll be much better for me to fail the interview portion than to just fail the HEIGHT REQUIREMENT, gosh 1 INCH lang un.....im standing 5'3 lang eh, i even wear 3inches heels, just to make my HEIGHT higher(buwis paa na nga), It can be excused sana eh cause i looked tall, but in my resume I was just 5'3 lang. So it all ended up NOTHING!
But i never regret, it was already an experience for me, i just really want that hotel to work with,it was my first time to see that place and based on what ive scene, im totally inlove with it:))
I wasnt able to took a picture, my bad, I was just really excited and dissapointed the whole time and forget to capture any moment of it:))


Since today, I do believed already that Friday the 13th has its both luck, it could be bad or good:) and this is for the first time, ive got the bad one:)
As far as i know, TODAY i did my best, but it never work out how i wanted to be, sooooo its not working according to my plan but instead on GOD's plan:)))


#positive and faith lang:)

aikatz:)

shit happens

:( sad . I never ever thought that it would happened to me. MISERABLE! After resigning @mf ive planned everything, but unfortunately NOTHING happens until now. Did I made a wrong decision? Perhaps i would say YES, cause im sooo NOTHING right now.But somehow NO, coz it made me understand what life means to me. I hate this weird feeling inside of me....

               I never ever imagine talaga that this day would come, hating him, my very own father. He never ever knew what am I feeling right. The fact that ive followed every single word and "pangarals" that he had thrown on me. And suddenly he'll just say "those words" nalang. It really broke my heart, and he doesnt know about it, That he hurted my feelings too much. I know sometimes i was the the wrong one, sometimes i did things that i shouldnt have done. But that's not an excuse for him to always push on my mind the mistakes ive done. Once is enough. I did it, I realized it, I was wrong, lets move on. Lets not mention it every now and then. He doesnt trust me at all, eventhough he says he does. I know, im too spontaneous, i do things that i should not do, but believe me or not, i know what im doing, that they(my mom and dad) were always on mind no matter where i am. I respected Him alot and he fails to be believe on that! Basta there were certain points bout him thats hard to understand. But in the end of a day, your my father:) I love you soo much and you love me also, i know, that's why your like that, your just concern on me. Everything that i do is for us, nothing more, nothing less. You shouldnt worry that much on me. KAYA KO SELF KO:)  I always hope and pray that we'll gonna be okay:)) FYI, its the first father's day that ive never greated you:( sorry im not that brave enough to open and say this to you PERSONALLY:(

                    2months and 28 days to be exactly UNEMPLOYED.. lol. honestly i never ever imagine that ill be unemployed this much longer. Thats makes me feel bad. As I've said a while ago, I've planned everything before resigning @mf. Here it is, my plan:

             Plans #3 and #4, I havent done it yet. Why? I just cant believe that INTERLINK Agency just disregarded me, and until now, im still hoping that they'll gonna endorse me. I had my training there, in housekeeping and F and B, I think ive done it all great. Actually they've called me once, but i wasnt able to reach that call for some reason. It really hurts to know that i put much efforts on them(sigh) major efforts. :( They never ever let me show them what ive got, it bugs me alot. For me that's not fair... On the other hand, PMS Agency was much better. They endorse me agad agad in a hotel, in Labreza Condotel somewhere in Q.C. As far as I know I did my best shot there, From the clothes I wore up to the interview portion, the general manager interviewed me, we talked for about 30-40 minutes, so I think im impressing him, but i was not, when he told me that he'll gonna call me for the next step of the interview, i already knew that i didnt make it. :( After a week, I went exactly @pier 15 again and passed my resume @2go Travel for the 3rd time, Im doing it yearly since 2010. I even passed my resumes via net on the respectfull hotel companies that ive known and researched on. Guess what? NO LUCK! See I made plans but its always bound to fail.

                 My motto is "try and try until you succeed, i know it works, but there are times talaga that your tired. It came to the point that i just dont want to work, dont what to go out, i started thinking"Is this what i really want to pursue?", I dont care about everything. Totally, im stress out!! It led me to dissapointment and worst i even say these "what's the point of the dreams that i have if in the end I'll just die, whats the point of living so long if i can just die now,". So disgusting and pointless words just came onto my mouth. Honestly, I just slept and cried for 3consecutive days, never talked to anybody else, even my family. I never knew that it could happen till it happened to me. Everybody knows that im funny, happy and very positive person. I dont even know myself, who i am. It was the darkest point I guess. Until, i started on praying hard, every now and then. Actually im not a SUPER religious type, im not that active in going to church every Sundays,I just rarely go to Quiapo church, whenever i need/want something., im not reading the Bible, I just believe that God really exsist, that's it. Ive never prayed that much hard since last year, when i started working @mf until now. And definetely, It was the answer to everything, from then, I realized He's worth, He's everything to me and I felt really bad on myself. That He needs to do this bullshit things just for me to remember Him, Honestly, if I didnt suffer failure ive never ever called Him, Ive never asked for Him, Ive never realized fault. He's the answer:)) God really works:)) In just a snap, im back on my own, im not even stress anymore, NO WORRIES at all. Thanks to Him:))

Also , Ive learned alot within that almost 3 months of my life. Now, i know which are my priorities and which are not:) Friends? I have almost 500+ friends on facebook and more than that on my daily basis, but now, Ive known that friends are just friends, They're all maybe there when everythings okay, but when its not, very few or the true ones are still there. Its just funny to know that the ones ive expected to be with me on my pains, where the ones whos not around, and the ones ive never thought, would be the ones to be on your side:) how ironic:) Life isnt about material things that we have or were going to have, its about learning and discovering things that would make you believe that living in this Earth is worth it. HAPPINESS matters MOST. Ive also known the value of every little or big thing that I have now, APPRECIATION. Being true to myself MORE:) and to do what it takes to be on the TOP:) afterall, itsmyLIFEmyCHOICE....

NOW I KNOW:) Thanks to you GOD:) 

aikatz:)

  

flashbackssss!!

[*i wrote it about a year ago.. nakakatuwa naman, mai mga gntong level pla ku:)) shareness lang, walei aku ibang mapost eh:p]

hay! isa nanmang araw! i dont know why, but since i woke up i felt sad! i saw my mom and dad having breakfast outside. my siblings was then sleeping! it was around 8 in the morning! it was a peaceful day! i dont feel hungry so after i was my face, brush my teeth! i went on our little terrice! terrice pangmahirap! tiningnan ku ung two love birds namen, check if they had still food! then i look for the other one! inuga ku ung cage nila! aun she went out of there mini room! fly close to me, sumunod ung partner nia, then they kiss! hay! how sweet naman! un ung naisip ku! (haha baliw?) uhm i remember, d pla mabubuhay ang love birds pag isa lang! kelangan pakners lagi sila! uhm no one's an island nga naman! hay! i looked outside! nakita ku ang view ng dikit dikit na bahay. d naman kame rich para sa subdivision or village tumira nu! ang ganda ng sikat ng araw! sa tapat ng bahay namen ay may 3rdfloor na bahay! sa kanan ay may munting barong barong at sa kaliwa ay 3rdfloor din. tabi kame ng kalsada pero d ng main road. the end part of our street is a flood control! dba i live in pasig! tabi ng ilog! madalas ang baha-thats how they describe it! hay! pero infairness, we almost lived here for 4 years, parang kelan lang! as i looked around, i remember those times that i was in cebu, my mornings there, how i look like. i remember! as i woke up, i checheck ku agad ang fone ku! if somebody in manila has texted me, pag meron, un i was so supah happy! i mean, kahit na single goodmorning lang ang message basta i know that that text was from manila pa, hay! napakahappy na tlga! that's how much i'd missed manila that time! syempre maghihilamos,toothbrush, as much as possible magawa ku un before i talked to somebody else there. one thing ruins my morning, that's when the passenger were still on our ship, wherein ang ingay, ang gulo, at nagkakalat sila! that really annoys me alot! panu ba naman, 2am nagaarive ung ship sa cebu then 7-8 in the morning andun pa sila sa barko. gosh! sometimes i think nga e to make some rules that whenever the ships has arrived to the port they must leave immediately! kxo masayado namang selfish!! hehe! then, after i did my grooming, aun i will look onto the sea, look as the sun rise, (shit! ang ganda ganda ng view, aun ang isa sa mga namimiss ku tlga) and then saka aku magcocount down how many days before i go home. then, after magilusyon, i have to do the daily chore and that was to sweep the floor, the whole deck a, pero minsan lang un kxe sometimes dalawa kame ni rose na nagswesweep dun e. walang agahan, haha! honestly we have, but i dont know if you can call it as a food! nakafixed na kxe ung food dun. NFA and kanin, agahan e tinowa(tinola in manila) ok lang sana kung chicken e, pero isda!isda! isda!! hay! sa tanghali ay fried! but its not chicken pdin! isda! isda! isda! hay! sa hapunan ay paksiw, at syempre isda un! un ang naging food ku for six months! hay! even myself i cant believe that i used to do that! gosh! i always asks my crewmates nga if i had some scales na e for we always eat fish. hay! good part of it was my parents always sends me allowance kea aun, pagbagung reload ang wallet, masarap ang pagkain! were so glutton there. i mean everytime we went outside the port, we always want to eat all foods that we see. kea nga big part of our allowances goes to food e! uhm kung ganu kabad trip pag sa cebu kame nagaarive e syang saya pag sa leyte kame. monday, wednesday and friday lang kame sa cebu, the rest nasa leyte kame, kea lamang pdin and happiness! hmm, you'll probably curious why did i say that. mas marame kaseng benifit ang pagdaong sa leyte! first, pagarrive namen dun ng 2am, bumababa agad lahat! as in lahat ng mga passenger + kasabay namen dumaong dun ang roble(shipping lines din)e mai mga career aku dun + the view is so awsome + mas mai possibility na masarap ang ulam, basta favorite ku tlga ang tuesday, thursday, saturday and sunday! haha! excited sa mga days na un xe im the one who's assigned for the announcing before leaving the port! i'd love hearing my voice all over the ship even the outside part when i did the deckhands announcements! haha! i remembered the first time i did it, i was mortified, i had a wrong word! and the passengers noticed it! hay! nobody's perfect nga naman! but as i practice aun, nakuha ku ung da best way to do it! hay! nagising aku sa pagkatulala at pagdaydream ku ng mai tumawag sa napakaganda kung pangalan mula sa ibaba ng terrice, napatingin aku, si "hi aiah" pala un. i dont know what's his name e! pagnanakakasalubong ku kse siya sa daan, "hi aiah" ang lagi niang sinasabe kea un ang tawag ku sa kanya. at walang kaabug abog sinabe nanman nia ang "hi aiah" haha! natawa tlga aku! hay! buti nlang mai mga taong ganun! napapasaya nila aku, even for a while! nawala na aku sa focus ng pagrereminise, hay! i really feel sad today! bket kea? habang nagiisip, napatingin aku sa mga batang naglalaro ng 10-20 sa harapan ng bahay namen, muli ay naalala ku ang aking kabataan, ung mga panahon na pagkagising ku ay d man lang naghihilamos o agahan ay deretso na sa labas kasama ang gomang pinagdikit dikit paramakagawa ng mahabang tali para gawing 10-20 at saka pupunta sa bakanteng lote sa tabi ng bahai namen, sa luoban kame nakatira nung ako'y bata pa at tanging isang bakanteng lote lang ang tambayan ng lahat ng mga kabataan sa lugar namen kaya dun aku dimederetso. araw araw ay ganun ang eksena sa buhay ku all those times until one day, binakuran na ang bakanteng lote and they dont allow the children to play in there anymore, nagalit ang mai ari cause of the garbages we throw there. lahat kme felt sad about it. wula na ang playground namen. wula na! hinding hindi ku makakalimutan ang araw na yon. maswerte padin ang mga batang to, nasabi ku sa saril ku habang pinanunuod sila, kxe dito sa street namen ngaun e mai space tlga na pinaglaanan para sa mga bata! nangawit aku sa kakatayo kaya i decided to go downstairs na! mejo nagugutom ndin aku e at gusto kung sumabay kila mama at papa! pagbaba ku ay i look for my cell phone then see if somebody has texted me, 3missed calls from **h*! hay! napadeep breath aku! hindi pa din nia ku tinatantanan, 1 msg from unknown contact. then, i went outside, nakita ku sla mamzie at papzie having their convo, walang kaabug abug nakisali aku, napakasarap ng feeling ng mai parents. i mean uo alam ku lahat naman tau mai parents e. pero iba ung kasama mu silang mabuhay, nakasuporta sau at ginaguide ka thoughout your life. somehow i feel happy as i looked at them, napakaswerte ku pla, i said to myself. kahit d man kame mayaman, walang magagarang sasakyan at bahai pero kumpleto ang pamilya ku. madame sa aking mga kaibigan ay broken family o d naman kea ay wula ang magulang dahil nagtatrabaho sa ibang bansa o inabandona na. im soo soo much lucky. my parents was able to give what i need and some of my whats. and i think i should be contented on what i have! alam ku na madami din akung faults sa kanila, isa dito ung inaway ku sila nung d nila aku pinayagan sa swimming namen sa cavite. hindi kame nagpansinan for about a week, after school and ojt i go bed agad! sometimes i really dont eat dinner until napuno na siguro si mama at aun she confronted me. aun! nagsalubong ang mga galet! i really felt bad din kxe that time. d nila aku pinayagan e first time ku magpaalam ng mga gnung outing. i study hard din naman nun. kea tlgang grabe ung moment na un. i supah dupah like to go on that outin! as in! aun! aku padin ang nagsoorrry sa kanila then, they forgive me ofcourse. and ang hindi nila alam tumuloy aku sa outing! haha! i just pretend that i was sleeping kila rose. haha! im such a badgirl! pero super dupah nagsisi din aku nun! and in the end i tell the truth din sa kanila! hay! napatingin aku kai mama when she called me! then all of a sudden i realized na kung baket aku sad today!! its because di na ku pumasok sa first work ku! but they bid me its okay!!!!!!!!!

promise ng UNEMPLOYED!!

ive been unemployed for one month and 19days to be exactly. its not easy though. yea it feels good to be home, you can do watevs you want to;watch, eat, sleep, go surf the net all day long:) but there are some points that you'll get bored and you miss working and of course earning money on your own:) i never thought that i'll be unemployed this long, i thought i can find another job to work on easily, but somehow i was wrong, totally. im planning on working on a hotel, any kind, as a room attendant(that's my goal right now) i just need some experience. but for now, as being unemployed, i promise:

*not to spend money- of course i will, dont have choice

*avoid gala- basically its conected with the first promise:) also i want to focuse on finding a job, but though i can still, but not that much

*avoid too much gimicks- yea! im practicing that eversince, not just now that im unemployed, but thoroughly.

*ill read read read- in other words i'll study, being fluent in english must be.

*help the household chores- yea!im doing it, but sometimes im too lazy to move that i havent done anything for one whole day. amsorry:*

*minimize fb maximize blogging- haha! like:)

*minimize flirting- yes i am, the last time i only had one and now nothing:)) totally nothing:)) promise i'll behave. trust me

last but not the least:
*strive strike struck- make efforts, do your best and aim for a new job!!!!!!!!



#ehwulangmagawaeh

aikatz:))