..hay grabe! After 6months, I found this blog entry in my files and I wanna share it kxe ininspire akes nung mga thoughts ku! Specially the ending part, pati ung bout kai aj.. Ganun ku pla sya kalove dati?!! Hay! naloka aku, and definetely after 2years of loving this guy I can say that he's nothing to me now!! Got curious? I have his pic..

There he is. I cant believe that I used to love this guy before. And I learned that feelings can vanished din pala, but it takes time though.. Dati sobra at sobra akung inlabish to him.. as in.haha.. Pakatanga much din. Ung anything I'll do for him, kahit lugi at ginagago na nia ku, kiber basta mahal ku sya. Ung feeling ku kame na para sa isat isa. nakakatawa isipin at alalahanin! Hay! Siguro nga nagmamature nadin aku ngaun, narerealized ku na mga bagay bagay. haha! As far as I know, he has a girlfriend now, and they look perfect and I'm sooo happy they made it very well.. Actually ung pic niang yan kasama nia talga ung girl, but I just cropped. hehe! 


Right now, magoone month na akes single, and Im just enjoying it. I still love Robert and even he's doing things for us to be together again i'd rather choose not to. sabe ku nga mas bagay akung ganto eh, single. Para tahmik, para mas masaya. Bawas bawas din sa pagflirt para di aku nakakarma.. haha! mature mature din :) Enjoy life nlangssss!


Here's the blog entry awanna share! read!
april 08,2012
10:34pm

randomly speaking:) + im learning! promise!!

hey! zup? obviously im making this stuffs again, writing. why i used to do this over and over again. top reason is that it makes me feel better, most especially in this times, when im much stress.... ill just make my mind flow...i mean type what i want to, pretty jerk isnt it? hmmm.. not that much! am i talking to myself nanman ba? haha.. hmm.. forget bout it...

well, 8m0s had already passedby, since i seriously post on my blogsite..and im about to tell what had happened on that particular 8m0s....lol:)

it all started last year of july 29th, i was hired, as i wished and finally it was granted.. housekeeping/room attendant @mariefrance:)FIRTS JOB!!! did i work hard to achieved that job? hmmm.. not that much:) haha.. yabang. actually i was scheduled to have my application @dolphin agency(international cruiselines) about 2mos later but since i was hired it didnt happened. i mean i refuse on that dolphin agency over mariefrance. bad decision? maybe half yes and halfway no!! lol okay, lezznot talk bout that.. uhm, my first week @mf was like a hell, a very disgusting acting supervisor was worst + the work itself was worst than worst and i was like "nganga" talga. as in, kungbaga shock na shock, it was really a surprise on me. ang hirap pla magtarbaho:/ haha.. the pressures @work made me feel stress all of the time.. sometimes, i had to cry on my way to work, coz i was like "sheeet, im going work nanman, i have to surpass this day". crying lady, i must say, on my way work + way home.. while nothing sees me, @ the backpart of bus while heading the traffic road of EDSA..lol.. (tandang tanda talga) but soon enough i got used with it. i learned. actually if were gonna analyzed my work description its not as hard as it is,what makes it hard is the people around you.. when im @ morning shift, i really have to be early, maybe around 6 i should be @ the center, i have to wait for the other staff, the one who has the key, as soon as she arrived i have to open our center, it was kinda creepy most especially the part that i had to turn the lights on from the recept-hallways-pantry-cons rooms-treatment rooms which was about 20-25 rooms, ugh and dont forget the 2 switches of aircon and the they say haunted cr:).. when i first did the opening shift, i forgot to  punch my dtr on the bundy clock..haha.. aligaga much.. but as they say, practice makes perfect, after a couple of weeks im best @ it.. :) serving the clients was part of our job too, giving them all they need just to make their stay on us comfortable, also we need to follow up the rooms as fast as we can, maybe around 5mins it should be all done, from the linens to the set-up and most of all it should be clean, really clean, most of the clients were rich people that should be majorly treated well.. also, we have to fix the linens + towels and we also have our own laundrys, we need to finish all the dirty stuffs as much as possible(i know how to use those big washing machines + dryer:). washing the dishes, doing orders, doing the inventories of the commissaries, detergent, softener + tissues delievery.. we have some paper works to do.. sometimes attending to the needs of the therapist + consultant even the doctors..hayyyy! we have lots and tons of things to do on our working hours, we dont have that formal one hour break, you can eat whenever, but you should attend to every work, you should know how to balance eating + working.. the biggest part was that, we had to clean the whole center, our supervisor/team leader checks our center every now and then, and if she caughts a dirty center, get ready coz its a worst day for everyone....lol kaya minsan b4 i got to work, i made a deep breathe and i was like "whoa, haler toxic world please be good @ me today and ill just let it flow, come what may:)" kase you'll never know talga what's gonna happen next.. mabilis pa naman facing ng mga situation.. sometimes, its not maiiwasan na mai mga lost things ang client, since we were the ones who clean the rooms, they put the blame on us, eventhough we never ever stole they're missing fones, ipad, jewelry or even money, we were the suspect w/c mades me upset...but despite of all of those things im soo lucky kxe i was never ever kick out of that job, im the one who decided to stop it.. okay, on this first job, andae ku natutunan on myself....there were times that i felt i was really stress, w/c is normal as an employee, i became an alchoholic girl, i want to go gimmicks as often as possible, i thought it would relieved the stress that im suffering. ung mga times na wala na ku pake kahit ilang yosi na nahihithit ku, kahit ilan o anung drinks na iniinum ku.. worst was umuwi na ku ng morning, kse ayaw ku umuwi.. feeling ku na independent na ku, i dont even care for my parents, hay...na kung san san na ku nagsususuot na lugar, na kung sinu sino nlang dinedate ku.. na nging materialistic na ku, na walei na ku paki kung sinu nasasaktan ku, na naging TANGA ku(aj), na i make promises i cant keep, na walei na ku limitations on myself come what may, na im telling to myself that its enough but sige padin aku ng sige, na masyado akung harsh, na nakalimutan ku na ung goal ku and most of all, i keep on saying that im with God, but honestly im NOT, i've already forgotten Him. and all of that narealized ku lang lately, after i resigned, na basta andae and sobrang dae ku na plang fault.. and i think i was really on the wrong track... but as they say, everybody deserves a chance.. haha.. but i dont regret anything from those experinces coz it just built me more stronger and it gave knowledge on me.. i pity myself those times that i was lost but i never regret talga. parmis.. ive learned to appreciate life more than everything, that i was blessed, that i got more w/c i never see before. pag puro hatred talga nasa heart mu, nothings gonna happen. maybe being frustrated with <3 was the #1 reason why id suffer those things. all this time, over and over again, i kept on thinking and loving HIM, but its not worth it. un nga, love is really blind. cguro, out of 100%, 1% lang ung reason why should i love HIM, and that 1% makes me believe that i should keep on loving HIM. kahit mali, kahit malabo. i tried to look for love, kse i thought nga that it would make me forget HIM, for a while it worked, but in the end of the day, sya at sya padin naiisip ku...ang <3 ku..so corny right? but its true.. haaaayyyyy! thats the way it is.. pero since dumaan ung 2 weeks including ung holy week, nakapag isip isip nadin aku,,..


And ill continue my career.. ung muntik ku ng makalimutang career ku, goal ku.. haha.. uo nga e, buti nalang cover photo ku un sa fb.. that would be my super goal....:) "CRUISESHIP"
another emo story of me!! haha.. alam ku naman na dadating din ung time na mababasa ku tong mga kaaningan kung to, na proud and tatawanan ku nlang specially ung part ng </3 ku..ill be honest.. i still love HIM.. idk until when pero alam ku dadating din ung day na un! ryt JOHN LOMIBAO JR? lol

work work work i need u!! hotel industry here i come:) or much better ship life AGAIN:)
opportunity meet me ASAP:)

xoxo
aikatz</3