Ang swerteko pala!

Well, I was about to sleep but andame ku naisip, things that I haven't seen before, how lucky I was. These past few days or weeks na nga siguro, puro stress and nega vibes ang naiisip ko. Just when he came back onto my life. Mahirap, sobra magsalita ng tapos, and I know matagal ko ng tinapos everything bout us, our whole story, pro nung bumalik sya, mas nangibabaw ung feelings ku sa kanya.I dont know how did it happened again,why is this happening again... but one thing's for sure. IM HAPPY that were otgether again,Eventhough lahat as in everybody says that I made a wrong decision. Truelove e. FIRST truelove ko :) Uhm un na nga, napagtanto ku how lucky I was, not just because i had him back, but because of what else i have right now, like my family, I know Im not the best daughter, sibling, but then they've been so supportive sakin, sa mga plans ku in my life. kahit na Im sooo pasaway and sooo spontaneous,they let me learn in my own way. i know that kahit were not vocal with each other, in our hearts were connected. :) And last but not th least is about my career. Im lucky to be have the job that I wanted. I got this job through my hard workings. Plus the fact that tumatagal aku at Im passing through the challenges, wow! that is something! Hindi lahat naaabot ang gusto nila :)

Soooo before I sleep, I wanna write lang and share how lucky Am I,and sooo thankful bout it :)
hayyy! bangag! sige na nga gotta go. basta Im happy right now. deep deep down in my heart!
Above everything I wanna thank my savior, ONE and ONLY :) Lord God :) Love you sooooo much. I know I can surpass everything with you in my heart :)


#thankful
aikatz

4th TIME....

Ehem! I was about to write last night bout all the things I must say/document, but unfortunately I havent coz I fell asleep. So Im gonna start telling it now, I need to rush a little bit coz my schedule tom will be 6 in the morning! Well, I didnt go to work for 5consecutive days :( hay! 5long days, wala nanman sasahudin... Last thursday and friday was my off, I schedule that for my medical and renewing my pnp and nbi clearance, some expired documents that I have to update. Last weekend I suffered from lbm due to what we ate a night before :( and so today I finished all the stuffs that I need to pass. Its my 3rd contract baby! My plan last year is that after 2 contracts Im gonna start applying for cruiseships, but but but, right now, Im thinking I need more time to think bout it, ofcourse, thats probably what my goal is, sometimes I feel lazy to start a new career, to continue what I should, and at the same time a little bit scared of rejection. I need more self esteem and confidence. I also think to be focused on more on guest communication, in dealing with them. So I decided to stay with shangrila for a couple of months still. Basta lets see whats gonna happen this following months. Maybe I just need a huge motivation to push through it -cruiseship :)

Anyway, your bother why I put "4th time" as a title. 

Believe it or not, Were together again for the 4th time, why Im like this. Why Am I still forgiving him eventhough I know that hes just fooling me??? why? sobrang ganun na ba ku kagaga ngayon??? Super lagi kung tinatanong yan sa sarili ko ngayon. We reconcile last saturday, sept 07, 2013. He texted me, asking if we can be together again, and walang dalawang salita, pumayag agad ako. Why Im like this? Even I myself dont know why I love him this much.... I dont know if Im doing the right thing, probably NOT!! pero sige Ill give it a try, this time no expectations, just go with the flow. I know its not gonna last din naman. Ill just let myself get tired of loving him :( ayoko na masyado isipin pa!!!!!

 

just want to be happy kahit sa pics lang :)

aikatz