Saturday dramas ;)

Hmmmm.. (think for about 5mins.) Hay! dont know what to say. ----

uhm. lets start nlng with what happened last morning. Im absent today :( unintentionally (tama ba spelling?)lol. Why? I was about to go work and ride a jeep, then suddenly may nafeel akung kakaiba. haha najejebs aku ng malala. as in, ung feeling na d mu na talaga mapipigil? hahaha. So i went back home, Im running out of time so since sobrang late na ku if I go work, I called nlng and told them I cant be around today, I was planning pa naman to have an off tomorrow coz its my mudrabels birthday. :( hmmm.. Hows my work? well doing really really great! still no DMslog. thats a good sign. :) Honestly its getting boring sometimes, maybe I was just getting used with the things i do everyday. parang i want a new lifstyle, new environment, new people and new challenges. haha andaw? NEW work :) haha. pero I dont know where to start again, I really hate endings. coz its really hard to do new begginings. andaw? baliwag nanaman ang peg ku ngaun. hay! epekto ng walang magawa! hay basta. mamomotivate din aku one of this days to start a new step on my career! antay lang for the right, i mean for the best moment :) 

haha. that swans made out of towel, kumita yan. haha 2.5k Actually I dont know how to make that. nagpagawa lang aku kay hotdog. sooo dapat ku ng matutunan how to make that on my own. lol :)

hmmm...wala na ku masabe till next time na nga lang. haha

gimik later ng "onti lang" @metrowalk with ate and her bff :) 

aikatz :)

much better NOW :)

2am. still awake. parang walang duty later a. lol. Anyways, I want to express what Im feeling right now. Honestly speaking Im still in pain, but atleast its not as worst as the last time I wrote. Un talaga super major! Ung feeling na ayoko na tlaga. lol. I then realized that loving someone seriously can hurt you seriuosly, super. Naloko ko ! Gosh I never ever thought that it'll happen to me till it hit me. Hay! I just met my "karma" lang talga. After that 10mos of super confusing US, now I can say that this woud be the LAST. Nakakaloka lang pag naalala ku how hard I tried just to make us work out. Kahit na long distance kme, kahit my mom doesnt want him 100x, kahit na against all odds us, kahit na 99% na ng pagkakataon nagsasabe na were not really meant for each other, na i still believe that ung 1% na un ang chance namin, super faith na sya at sya lang ang gusto ku, mahal ku forever. Hay! Nakakatawa isipin lahat lahat ng un. Moving on is never an easy thing or Maybe I was just not prepared, I never thought that there will be an ending for us. He changed me alot. But I never regret any of the things that happened on us, he taught me how to be strong, to be more matured,(w/c is not soo me before) Hay! enough! yea im still halfway in pain,but in due time, I know I can totally get over this. I just have to learn how to let go..........


on my career .
Well, 27 days togo and my 2nd contract ends. 10months @shang. hay! Parang kelan lang 1week plang aku,then I was then about to quit coz I felt like giving up, that it was sooo hard to be an R.A. There's no impossible talaga when you want something,when your aiming for your dream. Onting onti nlang, Im getting closer to my dream! -cruiseship. For a while I forgot it, I forgot that I have a goal, I was carried away by the happenings in my life, but thank God, super. No matter what I do, from worse to worst, no matter how lost am I, He guides me still. :)   I had lots of lessons learned @shang. From how to do the work itself upto talking to the guests.Different guests from different countries, diff culture and ofcourse diff languages. Dealing with them was never easy. You have to show them how please you are to serve them, nomatter how trashy their rooms were. Plus the fact that sometimes they offers you indicent proposals, like they're gonna buy you somethig,or pay you money in return you have to give them something.haha. soo cheap but it does happen. Being in this industry is sooo tiring but at the same time fun and exciting :) just sooo right for the people who gets bored easily on office works like me :)

looking forward....
*After several months I'll gonna start a new growth on my career, applying for CRUISESHIP :)
Ill not gonna stop till I hit that! swear! 
*Start a new lifestyle, from alcoholic to healthy living. how about enrolling on a tennis class? haha(naisip ku lang kanina while jogging and seeing it)
*forget Robert, ai mali, forget my "feelings" for him,its too way impossible to forget him physically :)


#aikatz #learning #faithlang