ehem.. well, it took around 4days before I had finally had a strength to tell anything.

Were nothing. Break na kme. Wala na, as in. How did it happened? well, ambilis tlga ng mga pangyayari. Di ku inaasahang sa gantong paraan kame matatapos. But it does hurt me to the bones, as if I wanted to die. Ganun kalala. Naisulat ku naman dto how much I really love him. Sobra. wala ng mas sosobra pa. Sobrang sakit. Pinakamasakit na naramdaman ku so far habang nabubuhay ako, OA isnt it? But thats the truth. It started last Jan.04, Hindi ku alam bat ang bigat bigat ng feeling ku the moment I woke up palang, As if I dont want to go to work, I wanted to see him(Rob). We were texting that morning, nagloko pa nga ku sa knya that I was on the way sa house nya, and hes really yamot. Parang may something sya. Then I was senthome that time,instead of going to pampanga(on his house) tumambay nlng ako kila tina, tinatamad ndin kxe ku pumunta sa kanya. We were still texting the whole time, until that afternoon. he told me na naguguilty daw sya may kasalanan daw sya skin, kinabahan na ku, kinukutuban na ku ng malala. Then he finally confess something on me. May anak na daw sya, 2yrs old. The fuck. ang sakit. sobra. parang nung time na un gusto ku malusaw, as in, first time ku lang naramdaman un. I cried alot. cried and screamed. Lahat ng mga pangyayare sa buhay ku with him nagflashback. NAGKAMALI aku sa pagpili sa kanya, well anyway di ku naman sya pinili right? sadyang minahal ku lang sya. the fuck na niloko nya ko. NILOKO nya ku. GINAGO nya lang aku, sya na pinagkatiwalaan ku ng 100%. ansakit. hanggang ngayon I can still feel the pain. sobra. malalng pain. sobrang minahal ku sya. lahat binigay ku at somehow umikot ang mundo ku sa kanya, tas eto lang napala ku. never ko na naman sya ginago or niloko, nagmahal lang ako, pero bat ganto? aku pa yung masasaktan? For a while naisip ku unfair super unfair. We talked, tinanong nya ko if I can still accept him. That time iniisip ku, parang di ku kaya matanggap sya kxe niloko nya ku, nagsinungaling sya, ginago nya ku, un ung nasa mind ku. But nung nakapagisip isp na ku narealized kung mahal ku sya at di ku sya kayang mawala skin, soooo I decided to still accept him. But after 2days nga lang ata, he doesnt talk to me anymore, when im trying to txt him I got no reply, When Im trying to call him hes not anwering, hes really too far from his actions before, less care for me, for us. But pagtinatanung ku sya gusto pba nya he says ofcourse, pero as if wala na ung dating kme. sabe nya naguguluhan sya. nagugulahan? the fuck! the super fuck!!! dba dapat aku ung maguluhan? niloko nya ku nagsinungaling sya skin. dba dapat ako ung iniintindi nya nga un dahil kung meron mang nassaktan, aku un dba? hay! putang ina mu robert ikaw lang mininahal ku ng ganto tas aku pa gagaguhin mu!! i dont deserve thiss.!!!!! ansakit much! sabi nya mahal nya ku but he never proves it! Sobrang wala ng kwenta. Last jan. 10. tnext ku na sya. ayoko na.